Holidays with foster children

Our family is super big on holidays, probably because we're super big in general. We love spoiling each other and making each holiday better than the last, however when you have foster children it's kind of hard. Despite the fact we knew they wouldn't be going back to their bio parents there was still a worry in our mind that somehow someway they would be taken away from us. Christmas was really hard, it was our first big holiday and they had never celebrated it before. Yup, our kids never got a Christmas before. That meant we had to somehow explain Santa and why he didn't visit them prior to coming to live with us. I know what you're thinking, why didn't you just tell them the truth? Well you see we wanted them to be kids, we wanted them to have this normalcy and to enjoy all of the magic of Christmas. Around Christmas time our social worker contacted us and told us that their one set of biological grandparents were now fighting for custody, that scared us more than anything. It also put a damper on our Christmas plans of spoiling the crap out of them, we had to scale back incase we lost them. Don't get me wrong, Santa still did really well, but he didn't bring the big items we planned on. It was also a bittersweet Christmas, seeing them open presents and be so happy with the simplest of things and knowing this might be the last Christmas we get with them and possibly the last Christmas they get ever. Thankfully, God was on our side and the grandparents stopped fighting for custody-literally just stopped-and we moved forward with our adoption. That means this Christmas gets to be my Pinterest perfect Christmas complete with the big items we wanted to buy. It may seem stupid to be that excited about Christmas, don't misunderstand what I'm saying it's not all about the gifts. We might be gay, but we're also Christians and will be adding Jesus's birth into the mix this Christmas, we didn't feel right about teaching someone else's children about God without their "Okay" first. Once you have kids there is a certain magic about Christmas that's hard to explain, but I've seen it with my siblings and their kids and I can't wait till this Christmas to experience it first hand.