Co-parenting

Did you guys miss me?! Probably not, but I missed writing here. A lot has happened in my month off,  if you know me personally then you already know Jason and I are no longer together for personal reasons. We however are still working super hard to raise all the kids together since they've been together this long we don't want them to feel like we've given up on them. Our co-parenting strategy is probably a lot different than most peoples', we really don't have a set custody agreement and aren't sure if we will end up needing one or not. Right now we make sure we're both at important activities and make sure the kids are okay with what's going on. Normally on weekends Jason will come visit at least for one day and see all the kids, we are trying to figure out when they can all go to his house-he lives three hours away. I have to say, co-parenting with someone who actually respects you vs someone you can't stand makes a huge difference. We both know that this set up isn't about us, it's not about our feelings, it's about showing our kids that even if something doesn't work out perfectly you can still have a happy ending. Jason has been my best friend for over a year, he's been the person I cried to at midnight, the one who had to hold my hair while I puked, the one who made breakfast when I was too tired from working all night. He was always there and it sucks to realize that person isn't here to help you out anymore, most days all the pressure rides on me. As sucky as it can be I just remember that this isn't all about me, I have nine little ones who want to see us happy and I will do anything to make sure they don't grow up with fighting parents. Right now, I don't even know if they realize we aren't together anymore even though they've been told and that's exactly how I want it.