Infertility Struggles

Our society seems to put so much emphasis on what it means to be a mom. Some argue you aren't truly a mom unless you give birth, some will say it's about your heart and the woman who takes care of the kids and is there for them every single day is the mom. I obviously agree with the latter of the two for so many reasons. This has become even more near and dear to my heart because of being unable to have children with Jason. This is something we found out about almost a year ago and it's something we've been trying to deal with since then. There are so many options available, we could adopt-did it, we could just not have kids-YEA OK!, or we could try to use some form of fertility treatment. We've looked into so many different forms of treatment and finally decided on one. The main issue were having now is finding out how to afford it, no I am not asking for money just using our family's blog for it's intended purpose to document our journey and this is part of it. The other issue is my fear of it not working. We had a miscarriage prior to finding out what was wrong and it honestly killed a huge part of both of us, the fact we were having a boy and Callie had just transitioned played a big part of it I'm sure but I know I won't be able to handle another loss. I realize that no matter what path we choose it's going to be a hard journey, you don't always end up with a baby at the end when you adopt and it's the same thing with using IVF so I guess if I'm going to chance it I want to do it right. Don't get me wrong, we both love all our kids equally, but there's something about being pregnant with your husband's baby that seems pretty awesome, I know it's such a weird thought you can thank the world for giving me those ideas. I'm hoping for the best and I hope you guys are ready for this emotional journey.