Mom life-1 Me-0

I think it's safe to say I am not made for this single parent life. It is so exhausting and I am running on Red Bull and Dr. Pepper, I know super healthy! The first two days I thought I might actually be able to survive this, but now almost a week later I'm seeing that it's emotionally, physically, and mentally draining. Obviously, I am not throwing in the towel because I'm a mom and moms don't quit, but I think it'a time for mommy to have a super long nap. Here's a little recap of everything we've done this week, Skyler and Ryker graduated preschool. That was pretty emotional, especially since people kept coming up to me asking where Jason was and I didn't want to answer that, which actually causes more questions. Savannah graduated preschool as well, a little less sad-I guess the parents in her class either don't care as much or they didn't want to be rude by asking. So officially three of my kids are summer vacation-yay! That means my mornings are slightly less hectic. I also learned a new skill, don't make fun of it, making grilled cheese. Yup! I seriously had no idea how to make it until recently when Jason saw me making it and was like "That's not how you make grilled cheese" and he was kind enough to show me and make a really good grilled cheese for me. Anyway, my kids love grilled cheese so I made them some and I did it correctly! Thanks Jason for teaching me that important life skill, not sure how I made it 22 years without it. My kids were shocked because normally Jason makes the grilled cheese, because you know I couldn't, and they gave me some pointers for my next attempt. I was also able to get all kids to school on time, get my homeschoolers homework done, walk the dog, do dishes, do laundry, get rid of old clothes/toys, and somehow I haven't broken down in tears-yet. Everyone kept telling me that as the days go by it'll be easier, but honestly it seems harder now than it did the first day. I truly believe that once summer officially hits and they're all done with school I will be able to handle it or cry whichever happens first.